I dreamt about Gita Paapa the other night. Nightmared about her, actually. There had been an attack and a ransack, and when I found her, she lay there behind the glass pane of the showcase, her little blond head fallen off, her eyes which are a cat-like green, shut firmly, and her pink-orange torso with her left arm torn asunder.
The Viking, and Ms Ting Tong, who loves to bob up and down to a music of her own, the Pink Elephant made of soap who’s lavender scent had long faded away, the little marble Taj Mahal, all lay in ruins about the dismembered Gita Paapa.
I woke up in a cold sweat, and realized with a “whew!” that I had been dreaming, and it was all I could do to go back to sleep and wait until a couple of hours later to rummage about in the Samsonite strolley to recover Gita Paapa and find her lying there in one piece , still wearing her printed frock, white shoes, and the blue&white skipping rope around her shoulder.
She opened her green eyes wide the moment I stood her on her feet, and looked at me, saying nothing. I stole a sideways glance at her, checking for an accusing look in her eyes. Not that I wasn’t already on a guilt trip as I ran over the recent past and couldn’t remember when I last talked to her, or spent an afternoon.
The smile never left the old dear’s face, and but for a streak of green felt pen (thanks to little Chichu’s ministrations) on her left cheek, that I mean to take care of with a touch of nail polish, she remains as non-judgmental, uncritical and ready to shower me with unconditional love as ever.
I decided she could use a bath, and she acquiesced silently, plainly relieved to be released from her prison where she had lain, forgotten.That’s not fair . Nobody forgot her. Haven’t I always remembered to bring her along wherever I moved? Chennai, Delhi, and now here, in the US of A? And she has been nestling cozily in silken luxury among the best collection of Kanjeevarams that could possibly be found this side of the Atlantic?
I scrubbed her down, having decided to skip shampooing her hair as it might be too soon after her regaining her freedom, I remembered the first time she’d been given a bath. And the storm in the teacup that it had stirred up.
I was a toddler when Gita Paapa arrived , a present from Cousin Bharathi who lives in Sweden. She was dressed in a white frock with blue and green floral prints, a pair of bloomers in the same fabric, a bonnet, also of the same fabric. And the white shoes.
For the first couple of years, Gita Paapa ( no one remembers how she got the name, but everyone agrees it was I who named her) lived on the top shelf of the showcase, and rarely came out to play. She was the “other baby” in the house, not to be handled roughly.
On one of those rare occasions that she left her high perch ( like Rapunzel, only with very short hair) , I discovered that she was a shut-eye, and her eyelids closed very delicately when she lay down. I was also fascinated by her green eyes. Cousin Anu, who is two years older than me was visiting, and so was Gita Paapa. Anu suggested a bath for her, and off we went to the garden where plenty of water and a stone tank was tempting enough for us to jump in for a paddle too.
Our plans were nipped in the bud, by Father, who came to check on us, and , quickly rescued Gita Paapa, her clothes and the little skipping rope and blue beach bucket that had come from Sweden when Cousin Bharathi visited again. She went back to her tower.
I now see this deprivation has not scarred me at all, though I sometimes wonder why I entirely missed an opportunity to be jealous of Gita Paapa. I mean , it’s natural for a kid to resent the presence of another in the house that claims even a tiny bit the attention that she’s entitled to. Especially if the said another is plainly being protected from said kid’s well-meant intentions of bathing her and feeding her. Heck , Mother even sewed a whole new outfit for her, with fabric left over from a new dress she made for me, after nothing could be done to save her blue-green floral print dress, cap and bloomer, many many years later.
When I way past the age of playing with Gita Paapa, although it never struck me then, I just liked the idea of her being there, belonging to me, and the story of her bathing adventure being narrated ad nauseum by the parents, who, to be fair, have had the grace to look sheepish about this over-protectiveness. Gita Paapa, it so happens, could be bathed, her hair washed and shampooed any number of times, and she’d be as squeaky clean, pink-orange as she’s always been.
I recently discovered I can be quite as silly over her as the parents were. Little Chichu who became the darling of second floor and delighted everyone by toddling , walking, and went from talking gibberish to speaking complete Tamil sentences in a week , or so it seems, took quite a shine to Gita Paapa. Chichu and I fell into the habit of playing with her every day. He’d come, and squeak delightedly, pointing at her, and Gita Paapa would be fetched down from her perch on the dressing table, and so would the jar of Johnson’s baby lotion, which we proceeded to rub on her face, and then he would stand before the mirror, hugging her, and admire his handiwork. On one of these little sessions, she acquired the green sketch-pen marks on her left cheek.
She was, luckily spared the fate of his toys, Pooh, Teddy, Kangaroo and Singham, who for a while could be found on the ground , as Chichu had started a phase of flinging them down over the parapet, and someone coming to second floor was always bring a stuffed toy along with them to be returned safely to Chichu’s mother.
When Chichu’s idol, KP returned from his summer in Qatar, Chichu became quite hyper, and it all happened in A-5. Part of the raucous welcome involved flinging Gita Paapa in the air, and I grew quite alarmed when I saw her flying across the living roon, into the potato bin in the kitchen. Before I could stop myself, I was screaming too.
“Don’t you two throw her like that. She’s got feelings too!” I shouted, and the two stared at me, quite stunned to see the normally mild, J Aunty acting so weird . They quietly slunk out, and I retrieved Gita Paapa from the potato bin, and smoothed down her dress, and made sure she was alright, and returned her to the dressing table.
I think Chichu lost interest in her on that day, and I’m glad. Notice the patch of nail polish on her left cheek, and notice the rest of her, and tell me I’m being an ass over her.
Oh! I have to share this: Gita Paapa’s is a real person, quite the girl who can fix her gimlet eye on you and make you feel smaller than her. She stood on the bathroom counter for about three days, wrapped in a paper towel after her bath, when, the H asked, “how long is she going to be there?”
I bristled, quite offended on her behalf, and countered, “why?”
“Oh, nothing. Nothing at all…..it’s just that she stands there, looking at me, and I’m not used to being watched while I shower.” he said.
Very well written piece Jay. Shivani liked it immensely. She quickly searched for her “Margie”, a sweet little girl with blond hair and blue eyes, given to her for 3rd birthday by Uncle Maha and aunt Bala – an elderly Srilankan couple who lived close to Viji’s house in Cambridge. For ages she had not thought about Margie. Poor Margie was lying forlorn in a box in the attic. Now she sits proudly on Shivani’s writing desk.
Oh I’ve passed the test then! If Shivani likes it, it must be really good! Looks like Gita Paapa has started a new Gombe aata!!
Very well written..
Shivani too has a doll a little mermaid shaped..with fins..which she stands on a pedestal /fish shaped..with a string.. and if a string is pulled she starts flying/pirouetting in the air….no not from sweden but from the USA..got it in 98..it still S prize possession 🙂 ..Shivani then 2 years ,called it REKHA though now she is safe in one of the cupboards..takes it out and lets her fly…once in a while..hawa mein udtaa jaaye mera REKHA paaapa ho jee ho jee…it is idhar udhar lehraaye..cos pirouetting in the air /dancing , is fine later the doll flops to the ground with her wings all over her..somewhere.. haha…
oh well if J athai had geeta paapa niece shivani has rekha paapa…..good you didnt name her godavari haha or you wud have whacked her and sung..neenge vondu yettu hodilla..? haha as you did/played once upon a time in 7th block jayanagar…in the 70s.with godavari (pal)…..:-)…opposote kokila auntys house where you stayed…then.
sudha (sis) had a rocking horse haha in NRcolony ..GOK how many cousins on appa side have sat on it in 60s,70s,,,later in the 90s i gave off the rocking horse finally..by the turn of the 90s the horse was without a tail…..haha. ..i am sure the horse is rocking even today somewhere….pun intended..in good ole days, good ole english rocking meant just that the literal meaning….sigh ! in todays times everything /everyone rocks./ing……!!!!!! ..
BTW Manisha (wife) also had a paapa JANKI..hehe…in basaweshwarnagar in the 70s/80s…given to her by her Mama (from IRAN)…M gave it a bath and put bindi and comb her hair etc….and given her a BATH/head bath…too ! ..BTW she was a BLONDE…i only wonder if she was BLONDE how/ why she was named JANAKI? hehe..
Tulasi tange jaani is in Alladi family then in kattemalalawadi family, its Manisha paaapa jaani hehehe..
may be she became Janaki paapa after she came to India..and into an IYER family…:-)
so IYER girls have paapas ….given to them by the amma/appa/,cousins,or mamas etc…..times/period/era/person may be different but the love one showered/showers .. on the PAAPAS is I guess the same, so whats different was/is only the Paapa’s NAME..?
great article…AJ……Geeta (papaa)Mera Naam…..aur yeh iski kahaani…suno jayasri ki zubaani….
Looks like Gita Paapa has stirred up quite a storm of nostalgia! Janki is Janki just as Gita Paapa is Gita Paapa, blonde or brunette or black!
Am going to covert this into a guest post, Shailesh
gombe aatavaaiyya, (rama)brahmandave a devaraaduva…….
loved reading it,, cld relate to it as i also had a Japaneses toy ,but i never gave her a name,, but emotions n memories associated with it is similar or same as yrs.. keep it coming ,
I know a certain Dog Ma . Mother of Stupid Dog. And I am grant aunt to a canine!
Nice story Jayasri. Brings back memories of Kavitha who weathered a fair bit of hair washing not only from me but a whole bunch of cousins. The joys of receiving a doll without having seen it being marketed ad nauseam was something else!
Truly. And my lesson is that parents who take care of your doll as tenderly as they do you, are precious!
gee .. tha paapa is as real as it gets .. she’s a voyeur !! so u both share the same secrets, eh ..? .. poor H … ! good storyline .. with kidstuff and hotsuff!! not just sweetkharacoffee, i could place it in masalachai too .. !!!!
Wow! great review from the class genius! Always cherish that!!